The past couple of weeks have been a bit of a challenge. While I haven't completely fallen off the "wagon" or slid back into old habits, I certainly have been dragging my feet. When I weighed yesterday I hadn't gained, but I hadn't lost any either. I felt very lazy and discouraged and I really didn't understand why. When I look in the mirror I can see how much I've accomplished. When I put on my clothes I can CERTAINLY tell that weight is being lost - my body is completely changing and for the better. I'm proud to say that when I began this journey in January (and this is hard to type or share, it's hard to admit that I had let myself get so big - anyway) I was wearing a women's plus size 24 pants and a women's plus size 22 shirt. As of today I'm wearing a women's size 18/20 pant and women's 14/16 shirt. I've even been able to buy a couple of shirts that were misses size or normal or not plus sizes. I'm down 11 inches over my entire body. It feels completely AMAZING!!! So why this little funk??? I'm not sure - I'm really now. For whatever reason I haven't felt the excitement and dedication. I only worked out once this week and it really wasn't a workout that Jillian or Bob would be proud of. SO...what to do??? How do you refocus, recommit and get rejuvenated. I started talking to the "Program" aka Eric, my cousin who's been my biggest encourager and who himself is committed to health and fitness for his family. After some re-evaluation of my habits and heart with him and re-watching the Biggest Loser Episode of the Dallas 5K I was able to see where I was slacking and lacking. My BFF Christy, who is also my biggest cheerleader and champion reminded me of what Sunshine said to me during the 5K, "Whenever you get discouraged remember how you feel in this very moment. Remember how awesome this day feels...." And that's exactly what I've been doing the last couple of days. Revisiting that day and those feelings and remembering that each and every day it is a CHOICE to do this. This change will not come just because I want it to. My goals will not be met and I will not succeed just because I would like to see them someday. Each day I have to choose to make myself, my health and my goals a priority. I even looked up the word "choose." To choose is to select freely after consideration. Which completely sums it up for me. Each and everyday it's a choice and only I can make it. Good or bad, right or wrong, only I can make the choice and so with new commitment to myself and my goals I choose ME. I choose my health and to love myself enough to work towards my goals. Yesterday I bought a new food/exercise journal that I plan to carry with me all the time along with my BL calorie counter book and I will write down every single bite of food I put into my mouth. I will also track every step I take and record every bit of exercise I do each and every day. I will be totally and brutally honest in this book and will weekly give it to Christy for critiquing. She will be my accountability partner. I will also make my workouts a priority. I will schedule them into my day and week and no matter what happens, no matter the time of day I WILL go workout. I choose to make my diet and my exercise a priority. I know that I will make mistakes and I will have days that are much, much more difficult than others, but I CHOOSE this. I CHOOSE ME - A HEALTHY, HAPPY ME!
Above is a recent picture :) Despite the lull or small set back I can't deny that my body is changing and what I am doing it changing it all for the better.
