It's been awhile since I've posted a blog... I seem to be so busy lately, but in the best of ways. I'm currently down 45 lbs with only 5 more to go to make it a huge milestone of 50 lbs lost. I'm so close and am so excited yet know I have so much more to lose and so much more yet to accomplish. I still struggle with balance everyday. Keeping focused about working out and eating properly has been a huge challenge the last couple of weeks. I'm scattered and unfocused and can't get into a good daily rhythm. I know exactly what I need to do yet I struggle daily with doing it. Making the right choices is very easy to say yet sometimes so much harder to do. Carbs continue to be my biggest enemy yet something I crave the most. Just yesterday I went through all my cabinets and took out anything and everything that was a carb or a bread. Regardless of how "healthy" or "low-fat" or "only 100 calories" it might be it is still my enemy and keeping me from destiny and from my health. I did take a physical through work and found that my blood pressure was excellent 119/78 and my fasting blood sugar level was 103. My HDL and LDL cholesterol were both very good, but my triglycerides were still high. All of this made me feel really good until I got to the section that said my BMI was still like 40. That's considered obease - that was so disheartening. Almost 50 lbs and I'm still obease. Sigh - just got to keep on...
Sometimes I catch glances of myself in the mirror and I say "who's that skinny girl?" Other times I just move away from the mirror as quickly as possible because I still see that "fat girl" I've been my whole life.
Regardless of my "unbalanced" moments God is still so good and is giving me the strength and the motivation to keep pressing on towards my goal of being skinny and healthy. All I can do is give 100% of myself to my goals everyday. Continue to make my health and weightloss my #1 priority and not let myself get lost on rabbit trails and winding paths for very long. ;oD
