Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Struggling
Sorry it's been so long since I posted anything. Life has been pretty busy lately and I have been struggling. Struggling with the diet at times and definitely struggling with work outs. At first I had a pretty good attitude and just kept on trying and not beating myself up too much for missing a workout or splurging a little here and there and honestly didn't think much of it. Then more and more time kept creeping in between workouts so I started whining about it to my friends and started getting really discouraged. Work has become a huge hurdle in my work out routines. At first I tried to work out at 5 AM each morning, yea that didn't work out so good. Then I tried going straight to the gym right after work which typically is a great work out time for me, but here's where work began throwing me a hurdle, my schedule has changed a little and instead on closing one night a week I now close 3 sometimes 4 nights a week. This is a problem because not only do I not leave until 6:30 most days but I have a 40 + minute drive home from work. By the time I get home I'm so pooped and hungry I don't make it to the gym. SO - wah wah wah, blah blah blah. Fast forward to today. I was thinking about how all this junk I've been griping about is just life. There is always going to be something that is going to keep me from going to the gym or tempting me to blow my diet. The BIG question is "WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT IT?" After a lot of great counsel from my friends and watching last night's Biggest Loser I have decided that I'm going to consciously make "the choice" 24/7! It is up to me and me only to reach my goals and keep me on track. I'm going to talk to my manager and ask if we can rearrange my schedule some so that I can commit to working out twice during the week and also work out on both Saturday and Sunday. I'm going to keep motivators and reminders of how far I've already come on this journey all around me and how far I still have to go and how the gap between them is shrinking daily. I will choose to celebrate the small victories as well as the big ones (and not with ice cream) God has been so good to me and he continues to bless me each and every day. Each and everyday I have a choice. A choice to follow God and a choice to make myself and my health a priority. "How bad do you want it Deb?" "Are you willing to make the right choices and the sacrifices it will take to achieve your goal?" The answer...YES! I love myself enough to do just that. So that's what I'm going to do. Now the question is, What are you going to do about it for yourself? :)
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As I watched last night's episode, I was struck by how much of the BL contestants' journey is not at all about eating and exercise. So much of the challenge is about piecing together the puzzle of what their personal struggles are and learning how to conquer those day by day.
ReplyDeleteI realized on the ranch, they get tremendous support, while living in a safe-haven, free from the stresses of work, family, and the real world. It's a huge kick-start, and even with that, the contestants really, really struggle at times!
I thought of you sweet girl, and prayed that you would stay strong as you piece together your own path. You should be so incredibly proud of yourself Deb! Keep it up! Thanks for sharing your journey with us all, you are truly inspiring!
You are already heading in the right direction, Deb! Staying positive will help you to stay motivated! I know I have not had the struggles that you have faced, but it is the same with anything you know you need to do for yourself. Obstacles get in the way (life), and you have to jump those hurdles!
ReplyDeleteI've been very committed to working out and eating right since November, because it really makes me feel great, helps me sleep better, etc. But, the past 1 1/2 months have been so crazy with my life, work, school, family, etc..., that I have put off working out, and eating right is on the back burner with the greasy french fries.
So, I do know how hard it is when obstacles like that come up, and can really hinder your awesome routine that you had down-pat. I'm so happy for you and how your really stepping forward in this "Journey" that must be so difficult to take. Just know that you have such an impact on so many people. People up here in KS have told Ryan and myself that they saw you on the show, and you were such an inspiration to them! And your family will support you in any way possible.
I know people have probably said this to you already, but I really want to say it too. I know Jeannie is so proud of you, Deb. I don't want to sound cliche, but you never know...she probably is smiling down from heaven on you...balling her eyes out with happiness like she does!!!!
I have so much faith that you have the determination to do this for yourself; and for selfish people like me that want you around on my 80th bday so we can be the Ya-Ya Sisterhood. :) Reading Melissa's email made me think of your mom. I know she is so proud of you!! Stay Strong.
ReplyDeleteLove you so much.
Deana